Stress

It is almost 12AM...and I am still up, stressed (despite a number of meds to assist!). I wouldn't have been stressed, except for my boss...

I made the mistake of checking my work e-mail, and he wrote to ask if I was coming into work (he wrote it last Monday!) and when should he call me at work. I have the work week off, and he knows this! Because I am aware I am behind, and DO HAVE A LOT OF WORK, I am taking his e-mail as his attempt at asking me to go in and work. Perhaps I am misinterpreting the e-mail ( I doubt it though, knowing him!). Therefore, despite having already gone in the week before, on a day off, I will go again tomorrow morning. I just mainly feel bad for Mike, who offered to go with me (to drive!). It is unfair.

The work at my job is really endless. The minute I seem to be catching up, a whole new pile of time-sensitive stuff piles up! My predecessor went with the flow, and didn't stress. I on the other hand, stress ALL THE TIME.

Clearly, this job is the wrong fit for a number of reasons. First, the job has a BUNCH of different facets. I do advising (orientation, workshops, all the degree paperwork for 150+ students). I do admissions and recruitment (for 300+). And because I do recruitment, and our application numbers are DOWN significantly, I feel I am to blame (despite doing EVERYTHING exactly as my predecessor). Secondly, I really need a SUPER laid-back office/boss/colleagues because by nature I am a stressed person.

While I still do not wish I was back at UCI, I do so much appreciate my old boss. She was the BEST boss/supervisor in the whole world. She was priceless, and I guarantee, I would NEVER have gotten an e-mail like the one I describe above, from her.

When it is time for a different job, I will be paying a bunch more attention to the description, and atmosphere...